my friend came to visit me lastnight. he is so annoying i cant wait 4 him to leave. like who comes all the way out here to just sit nd stare nd smile? hes a really nice guy, but hes way to quiet nd shy. which is not how he acts over the phone so…we probly will jus b phone friends

So yesterday I participated n my 1st video shoot 4 my homeboys song “Turn The Radio ^”. (Off the why lie mixtape available on datpiff.com) I had a great time. It was nice bein around old friends. I played one of the dudes dates n the song so I was kinda in the whol thing. Now were waitn 4 them to edit it nd all the things they do to it. I’dnt really kno. I jus hope it comes out good. I would hate to ruin the vid. I mean dnt get me wrong I did a good job nd I looked damn good. I mean it suxx cuz half the tyme I’m myworst critic. I hate the way I portrrayed myself while I was there cuz I was jus like so self conscious. I mean I dnt have the perfect bod but its okay. Wen I get around other ppl tho. I hate it bcuz wen they stare I think its bout sumthn bad. Idk we’ll jus c how it turns out I guess.

I love doin what I do 4 a living. I’m a P.C.A. Nd its very good work. I like my clients nd I like my co-workers (whenever I get tha chance to meet them) I jus really don’t like the agency I work 4. I mean it seems like they try to do everything to make my journey crazy!! I mean I live n albany nd none I mean NONE of my cases r even in albany. Thys shyt is crazy! I’ve been lookn 4 a nw job but its kinda hard becuz I work all day nd by the time I get home, I gotta get my kids (well they get dropped off @ a certain time). Idk I need to do something bcause these ppl r stressn me out. I mean I want to work nd they jus slave me nd I’ve me the cases nobody else wants. Nd if I say I dnt want it then I won’t have a job at all bcause ill b waitn 4evr 4 a case close to home….thys suxx.

Y is it that everytime my sister fucks up, I get thrown under tha bus too? I did nuthn wrong not thys tyme. Nd I will not take the blame. So mom guess wut?…if its fuck me, it fuck u 2!!